Drivin'

The Boyfriend and I are packing up and driving to Tahoe tomorrow. I can't wait as this is the only vacation we will be taking this year, with the added bonus of seeing our friends Julie and Vince tie the knot.

Okay, so the wedding is the main reason we are going, but we added a day on each end so that we could enjoy the scenery as neither of us have been to Tahoe before.

We will roll back into town on Tuesday - until then, I am offline.

Oh Yeah

12 pounds gone baby!

Never to return.

Tip of the Day

Do not store hot dog buns (still in plastic bag) on top of banana's. Because apparently banana flavor can permeate anything.

And when you go to eat yummy hot dogs in buns, it will taste like someone wrapped said hot-dogs in banana bread and served it to you.

And it will be gross.

Thank Goodness for Cold Fronts

11 pounds - that's the official weight loss so far. Actually, I hit that last week, but thanks to a weekend of mind-melting heat and therefore lots of time spent finding places with heavenly air-conditioning (like restaurants), I spend most of this week getting back to the 11 pound weight loss mark.

The upside is that I am not the least bit bothered that I haven't lost more this week. The whole weighing myself every day did indeed help me spot that I was a little lax last weekend in my eating habits and helped me take more notice if what I was eating this week. So, it worked.

Plus, I haven't been all down on myself for not losing more weight this week - I can't tell you what a change that is for me.

I don't feel like giving up.

I like this feeling.

I'm going to need it next week when we go on a road trip to Lake Tahoe for a friends wedding.

My Brain Melted

We're having a heat wave, a tropical heat wave... You know it's hot when The Boyfriend spend all weekend running errands as an excuse to go somewhere with air conditioning!

So, as part of this whole "lifestyle change" I am on in terms of losing weight and such, I find myself doing a lot of self analysis, which is very weird for me as I have never been someone to really self analyze (I'm pretty sure that my close friends are seriously nodding their heads in agreement at this).

While I find this whole thing kind of fun and interesting - one could say I am learning a lot about myself - I find other parts of it kind of bizarre.

I have more to say on this, but I don't know if I am ready to share just yet. It's very odd to realize at 30 that you just may not know much about yourself. Or, because you were so very unhappy with your weight and how you look that when you finally deal with the whole situation you might also be dealing with the fact that you kind of cut yourself off from yourself as a way of dealing with your unhappiness.

Well, I guess I did feel like sharing.

I'm realizing just how screwed up my body image has always been. I mean, I knew it was always "kind of" screwed up, but I mean - I really had no idea what I looked like. At all. I look back on photos now and I get really sad for the person in them. She had no idea how perfect she was. I wish I could go back and tell her to ignore that stupid voice in her head - the one that told her she looked all wrong, her figure was too curvy, her clothes/hair were all wrong.

Man, that voice was really really dumb.