I Have No Idea What's Going On Around Here

So, someone pointed out that I haven't updated about my weight loss lately. Which is nice, because I haven't and I worry that people are sick of hearing about it.

But, the truth is, I haven't lost much weight lately. In fact, according to my scale this morning, I've gained back about 3 pounds. But, 3 pounds is one weekend of me not being careful about what I eat and I quickly lose it after a couple of days of running and eating right.

Unfortunately for me right now, that's not an option. The running part anyway. See last Wednesday, I had very, very, very minor surgery(details coming soon! With pictures!). And apparently I am not a teenager any more, so it's taking a bit longer to recover than I anticipated. On top of that, I haven't been too careful about my eating habits lately as I need to eat more than the 1000 calories I roughly consume while on Nutrisystem, due to the fact that apparently your body needs fuel to heal and mine was not happy when I didn't give it enough fuel.

On the flip side, I seem to still be losing inches, or something as it was pointed out this weekend and by my boss today that I look thinner than ever. So, I just have no freaking idea what's going on, but I'm not going to dwell on it.

I took my measurements last week and I've lost another 2 inches (on average) all over. So, I must be gaining muscle. I'm definitely gaining looser skin. Which is weird. But again, it means I'm losing weight, so I'm not complaining.

While I'm enjoying the food aspect of healing, I'm going freaking stir crazy about not being able to exercise. The first 2 days afterwards, I slept a lot, so not exercising was no big deal, but since then I can't to anything without my wound being sore. I tried walking on Saturday morning while The Boyfriend ran his usual route, which ended with me being in pain. I walked at lunch today, again at a slower pace, and again, I'm in pain.

So, I will not be running tomorrow as planned. I may not run this week at all, but I will keep walking, even though it makes me sore. I have to do something, I hate the slug feeling I get from sitting around.

Payoff

Today is the day I will write the check that will payoff my car.

My car, that I lusted after for like 2 years.

My car, the very first car I have purchased with my own money. (I know you probably think I am spoiled right now, but seriously, I have owned 3 cars in my entire life, one was a hand-me down from my sister. Also, I treat my cars very well, so they last).

My car that I love driving and love parking so much more (because it's so small, you see!).

My car that is very fuel efficient.

My car that will now be officially be ALL MINE!

My car that I am paying off like 4 months early.

It's a good day people.

Allergy

I am freaking sick to death of my allergy problems. This has been a particularly dreadful spring/summer and it doesn't seem to let up. Today, I am fighting off constant congestion and now it feels like a migraine is coming on.

UGH.

Sunday

This is photographic evidence of what happens when The Boyfriend and I have a Designated Driver (or we just ride along with Steve and then inform him that he's our designated driver once we get there) and we attend a Bachelor/Bachelorrette party in Glendale that had pitchers of Margarita's just sitting around for us to serve ourselves.

Afterwards, we wandered around the new outdoor mall (seriously, I was WANDERING like only a drunk person can) when I noticed they have an H&M store. I've never been in one before. The Boyfriend may never let me in one again.

Resolutions

I ALWAYS feel better when I run in the morning. No matter how much I think I want to skip it, I shouldn't. So my new resolution is that unless it is a scheduled morning off, I'm getting my behind out of bed and lacing up the running shoes. Unless it's raining. I know this is going to be extremely difficult for me, but I'm really going to try.



I have a really hard time lately bouncing back from a "meal off". I've had several things come up lately where food was served and I allowed myself to enjoy a "cheat meal". But the truth is, I don't ever completely enjoy it. I feel guilty for not eating my Nutrisystem food (it's expensive!), I usually feel like crap after my "cheat meal" (usually because they are full of sodium and I feel completely dehydrated and yucky) but I still have a hard time going back to my Nutrisystem food because there is still a longing for the bad-for-me food. So, my new resolution to try and have no more cheat meals. I'm not sure this will happen, but I'm really going to try.



Losing weight is hard. And isolating. I know that's so simplistic to say, but at first, it wasn't really that hard for me. But most of my interaction with friends includes eating out. When I don't go, I feel isolated. And frustrated. I want to be off this diet. I want to be able to eat whatever I want. I want to be at a maintenance level. But that's just not reality for me. So, my new resolution is to just deal with this. I have so many people that have been and continue to be supportive, I'm really not isolated at all. I just need to learn to tell people how I'm feeling and suggest things that do not include restaurant meals. I need to take charge and put myself and my health first. My friends will be there when I am able to eat out again.

Most of my frustration lately is due to the fact that my weight loss has slowed down. But it's only slowed down because I've been not working at it. Since it was so easy to begin with, I figured it would always be so easy. And it's not. So I've had to really re-commit myself to a healthier lifestyle and a renewed sense of really working towards my weight loss.

Even though I've lost 30 pounds, I'm still not done. There was a time when that would have overwhelmed me. Not now. Now I will just keep working towards my goal. One meal at a time.