Upwards

Things are starting to look up around here. The Boyfriend and I finished the great clean-out/up of our bedroom and some of our apartment. 2 trips to Goodwill later and you can actually see a difference in the amount of stuff around our place. Getting rid of things is my new hobby.

We are in the midst of getting Episode 7 up and running. It's been pretty stressful as this is going to be a big episode in terms of props/casting/slight changes to things. But, it's all starting to slowly fall into place, so I feel like I have some breathing room, not much, but some. I think most of the stress falls in that it's been so long since we've been in production. Also, Episode 6 is on it's way to finally being finished, so that's another sigh of relief from me.

I've lost another 2 pounds - so my new grand total is 8 pounds gone. I'm finally allowing myself to get excited about this and not fret that it's all going to fall apart somehow.

Shhhh!

An Open Letter to the Stupid Idiot Sitting Behind Me at the Movies Last Friday (and her boyfriend):

Obviously, from the get-go, I knew you were an idiot. You showed up to "I Am Legend" over 20 minutes into the movie, which means you have no concept of time. Just like you have no concept of the fact that there were other people enjoying a movie and maybe you should sit your ass down quickly since you are completely disturbing those people by coming in late to a movie.

But this wasn't the topper for you. Of course not, you are an idiot. You had to ask your precious boyfriend (whose lap you were practically sitting on) every times something happened in the movie, and he had to explain to you what was going on. Which means I got to listen to all of your idiotic questions since you have no concept of whispering.

AND, finally, thanks for announcing to everyone around you that something scary just happened.

Seriously, you are a complete tool. If plots of movies are so freaking hard for you to follow (and really, "I Am Legend" is NOT THAT HARD TO FOLLOW) you should probably stick to watching movies at home so no one else has to listen to your fucking idiotic questions.

You are damn lucky that all I did was shush you a couple of times (which did nothing to shut you up. Because I am sick of having my movie going experience ruined by people like you. If being in a public setting is just to hard for your tiny mind to grasp, please for the love of all that's holy - DON'T GO TO THE MOVIE THEATER.

Or at least don't sit behind me.

Sincerely,

Chez

Rainy

It's been a very odd week for me. Bad news from a friend mixed with a rainy week and I feel all introspective and teenagery. Sometimes I am so saddened at the realization of just how short life is. Makes me wonder what I'm putting on hold that I shouldn't be.

The Boyfriend and I mostly finished cleaning out the bedroom last weekend. It looks so much better in there already and we aren't even done with the cleaning and such. Plus, we found a good home for all of our old VHS movies. We are donating them to a retirement village - a friends father-in-law lives there and they have a place that they leave videos out for anyone to borrow. It's a really nice feeling knowing someone will get a kick out of watching something that just sat around our place gathering dust. Plus, most of the movies are old school - "My Fair Lady" or "The Natural", so I think it will be a good fit.

In other "getting rid of stuff" news, I have lost 6 pounds so far on Nutrisystem. 6 pounds in 2 weeks, yeah, you could definitely say I am happy with that. The only downfall is that I am in-between sizes. Not yet thin enough to fit into the next size down pants I am saving, not heavy enough to fill out the pants I do own. It's okay, I am enjoying the fact that my clothes are all loose on me. I'd forgotten what that feels like.

Emotional Food

Yesterday was a hard day, food-wise. I'm feeling run-down and just generally unwell and all I wanted was some comfort food. So I made sure to have my Nutrisystem chicken and dumplings for dinner, which helped.

Which just confirms that I am an emotional eater and that scares the crap out of me. I wasn't always this way - I used to NOT eat when I got stressed out, which, quite frankly, is quite a bit easier to deal with than eating because you are stressed. I also never used to eat because I was bored - so I have to fight against that as well. Good lord, maybe I should take up smoking. Okay, I'm kidding, I would never take up smoking to lose weight. That would be dumb.

Speed would be a much better option. (Kidding again! Jeez, you are touchy today.)

I've lost 3 pounds so far, maybe more as the battery to our scale crapped out this morning, so I have no idea if my weighing yesterday was accurate or not. Who cares, 3 pounds in 1 week is very respectable. If I can lose 3 pounds a week until my birthday, I will have more than surpassed my goal of losing 20 pounds before then, so I'm quite happy with the results thus far.

On a different note, I just saw a screening of "27 Dresses". All I have to say is that I am nursing the most insane crush on James Marsden right now.

Pablo

Should I think it's funny or sad that I only know who Pablo Neruda is from an episode of "The Simpsons"? I found this today and I really like it:


Sonnet XVII
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

Pablo Neruda

Seven

The Boyfriend and I started cleaning out our bedroom last night. The bedroom is a huge source of disappointment for both of us (as a room - get your mind out of the gutter).

The room is small, we can't really do anything with it and it's always full of random crap, especially when we are filming the sitcom.

So, onwards with the de-cluttering. I am very proud to say that we made a HUGE dent in 1/2 the room - I have a car loaded with 7 bags of stuff for a lunch time dropoff at Goodwill.

People, I can't even begin to tell you how happy this makes me. We have big plans for new dressers for the bedroom and the biggest step in getting them (besides figuring out how to pay for them) is getting our bedroom less cluttered.

Unfortunately, we still have a long way to go. Most of the stuff we are getting rid of so far is clothes and shoes. The Boyfriend and I have fallen into a routine of keepinge everything because it might be a good costume or prop as well as the clothing I am keeping because I hope I will be able to fit into it again.

You wouldn't believe how thin I used to be. I mean, holding up some of the stuff I used to wear was quite a shock. But that's okay, I have one bag of clothes I am holding on to and I will fit into them again, because they are VERY cute clothes darnit!

Soda-Less

On my journey of being healthier, I have decided to give up drinking soda. I no longer make excuses to myself that since I was drinking Diet Soda it was somehow better for me.

I started decreasing my soda intake before I started Nutrisystem so that I wouldn't have such a shock of changing my entire diet at the same time. So far, I barely miss it. I had noticed that I had a tendency to overeat at meals I would drink soda with and that when I drank water with what I am eating I don't overeat.

That being said, I am drinking more coffee and green tea, so I am still getting caffeine, just not as much as I was getting before.

I am hoping this time I can stick to this as I've tried quitting soda before. It's definitely harder for me when we eat out, but since eating out is not happening anytime soon, I think I can get myself so used to not drinking soda that ordering it will not be second nature.

Of course, I will probably have a raging addiction to iced tea soon...

Less

Guess who decided to try Nutrisystem for a few months - and then geniously decided that starting a new diet while completely pms-ing would be a good thing?

Yeah, I am brilliant.

Yesterday was my first day. It was hard. I was hungry a lot. And then today while filling out my online tracker for what I ate yesterday, I realized that I had barely eaten 1,000 calories. So, I was hungry for a reason. And grumpy! Okay, I can not in all honesty contribute the grumpiness just to hunger, but whatever.

Today has been much better. Today I have been much smarter and today I do not want to bite anyone's head off.

I mean, I do not want to bite anyone's head off out of hunger.

De-Clutter-ing

The Boyfriend and I spent this weekend embarking on a new project, the rampant, ruthless and somewhat painful decluttering of our apartment.

We have been wanting to do this for awhile now and this weekend seemed like as good as time to start as any other time.

It's part of a new way I'm trying to view the world and our apartment. I have been following quite a few blogs on green living over the past few months and they really have me thinking about my lifestyle. The Boyfriend and I try not to live above our means, but that hasn't stopped us from collecting tons of junk. It doesn't help that we both come from families that don't get rid of stuff. A habit that we are trying to break. Well, I should say, a habit I am trying to break and The Boyfriend is along for the ride (mostly willingly). And I'm taking a serious look at how I shop/spend money.

I have reached a point in my life where I just don't want to have attachments to things. Obviously, I like my stuff, but I have boxes of things I am saving and for what? For when I have a bigger home? But even if I potentially could have a bigger place to live, I fear I would just fill it with more stuff.

Another thing that is fueling this "getting rid of stuff" thing I've got going on is an article I read recently that said scientists have definitively connected people who are overweight with people who live in a cluttered environment. This makes a lot of sense to me. I feel like I am really ready to make sure I am healthy and that the place I live is healthy - which means less crap all around, which means we might actually dust every once in awhile which would be a very good thing for me since I am seriously allergic to dust.

So, yeah. Change. I love it. I embrace it.

Sitting

We have been house-sitting for the past week and because of this, our apartment is still all decorated for Christmas. Let me tell you, there is nothing more depressing than Christmas decorations way past New Years.

Tonight is our first night home and all I can think of is how we don't really have time to get the decorations down until this weekend, and yet, the idea of living with them up for the next 2 days is so very sad. Oh well.

The Holiday season is over, finally, and I am feeling a bit more normal lately. Back to running almost every day, back to eating well, etc.